It hasn’t been easy for me which I’m sure you know. I had to spend my own birthday without you and that was extremely difficult.
No traditional kisses from you or sharing a bit of ice cream. Or opening gifts with your "signature" on them.
I got through it alright thanks to Hayley but now I have to face Thanksgiving and Christmas without you. No “Kiss the Turkey” or “Look at the Tree” anymore and I’m going to miss your sneaky little face under the table asking for turkey.
There’s a lot of things I’m going to have to get used to doing without you and that’s hard. You were such a big part of my life that I see you everywhere and the memories start playing through my mind, bringing my days to a stop.
I found an old video of you the other day. It was from back when we first escaped Casa de Frankenstein. Remember how chaotic that was? Well I found the video of you taking out toys from a plastic bag I had set aside to get rid of because you NEVER played with those toys. But in true Pud form you decided that on that night you were going to play with those toys so that I wouldn't throw them out. Then you decided to show me love by knocking me down and giving me silly Pud kisses, then smashing me under your big body. You were so silly!
I try to hold on to those silly memories and let go of the ones that came this August.
But that’s not why I’m writing a letter to you my little dragon. I wanted to thank you from the bottom of my heart for everything you did for me over 10 short years and for all that you taught me. I know I thanked you on our last day together but it bears repeating because it was you who did for me what no one else could at a time I felt the most alone. You needed me and I loved you so much I didn’t want to leave you alone with no one to take care of you. I want to thank you for having my back when no one else did. Only a pet parent can understand how important a furbaby is in tough times and in my grief I’ve realized I have some amazing online friends and fellow pet parents who shared in my sorrow then and even now. Sometimes people surprise you in a good way.
Happy Birthday my dragon. I miss you more than words can say.